kay cool peace out
a little absurd that the Best FYF Ever had to happen the year I moved to the pacific northwest
tears forever and ever
echoing sentiments, etc.
I’ve had to pee for an hour and I can’t leave my dorm room. This is funny but also terrible.
IT IS THURSDAY OF READING WEEK AND I HAVE FINISHED 1 FINAL.
THANK GOODNESS.
Working 10 hours more per week than the school’s absolute maximum has done wonders for my productivity/efficiency, but I’ve also become more than a little manic and now it’s finals and oh dear, what am I doing?
Janet is holding her smartphone very close to her face, dictating emails and waiting in line at the Alaska Airlines terminal in Fresno, CA.
“Dear Tom (comma) (return) Can we reschedule Tuesday’s meeting to Friday of next week (question mark) I’ve been playing phone tag with Dick and it looks like Friday would be best for most of the department (period) Let me know your thoughts (period) (return) Best (comma) Janet”
“Reply to Jerry. Jerry. God, okay. No, delete ‘god, okay.’ Jerry (comma) (return) The logo looks great (comma) but we need it in a bigger size to print it on the tote bags (period) Talk to Mike in Processing if you have any questions (period) I won’t pretend to understand that darn computer program (exclamation point) (smiley emoticon) (return) Best (comma) Janet”
Janet pauses, taking a drink of her Power-C Vitamin Water, flicking her thumb across the screen of her phone, gazing intently.
“Dearest Jason (comma) (return) Another winter came and went and I still think about you constantly (period) While I understand your reasons for moving to Arizona (parenthesis) a great desert (slash) wasteland (comma) like my heart (exclamation point) (end parenthesis) (comma) I still find myself thinking about you every day (period) The sun shines through my windows in the morning and hits my face (comma) and all I can do is remember that time we were at the beach and it was so bright and you forgot your sunglasses at home (comma) so you had to buy those icky cheap ones from the kiosk down the road (period) How funny you looked (exclamation point) (return) My feelings for you are starting to wear on me (comma) Jason (period) My heartbeats are almost never regular anymore and I can’t tell when that’s because I’m reminded of you and when that’s because I had too much coffee in the morning (period) Work is boring and I’m always tired (period) It’s no wonder I spend all of my time thinking about you (period) (return) I hope you miss fucking me as much as I miss fucking you (period) Sometimes I think about all the ways we used to do it (period) I wish we could have gotten the hang of that whole standing(hyphen)up (comma) you(hyphen)lifting(hyphen)me thing (comma) but I weigh too much and my hair is dumb and it’ll never be like it is on TV (period). Ha (comma) I guess that’s true of a lot of things (period) (return) I think that if I saw you right now I’d probably just hit you and kick you and maybe scream and cry a little (period) I’m mad at you for leaving (period) Not that I blame you (period) Please don’t think of me as overbearing because I try really hard not to be (period) I want you to think of me as not like the other girls (comma) maybe (comma) I guess (period) Is that stupid (question mark) It’s probably stupid (period) (return) I get it (comma) that you had to leave (period) Really I do (period) And I’ve spent a lot of time trying to make myself okay with it (period) But I still think it was a terrible thing to do and I am not going to be able to forgive you for a while (comma) I think (period) Which is hard because I love you but then again that’s exactly why I feel this way (period) And by (quote) this way (unquote) (comma) I mean crazy (period) I mean absolutely fucking nuts (period) I hate this (period) (return) This letter has no real objective (comma) I’m sorry (period) I guess I just want you to write back and I guess I just want you to be as not(hyphen)okay as I am (period) (return) I love you (comma) Jason (period) Please write (period) (return) Best (comma) Janet”
hey I wrote a thing and maybe I finished something for once in my life
songs playing while I was signing my lease
- “Drops of Jupiter” (which, incidentally, I have in my notebook as “David Gray song???”) — Train
- “Ironic” — Alanis Morissette
- “Fast Car” — Tracy Chapman
- “This Love” — Maroon 5
- “Free Fallin’” — Tom Petty
